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[02 Dec 2009|09:25pm]
Its kinda crazy. I'm sitting outside of the intensive care unit. With my family and friends of ours and my cousins. And yet I'm so alone rite now. And I just keep thinking of steven in there alone. With his loved ones only able to see him thru glass doors. Its just not fair.
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[06 Apr 2009|09:03am]
[ mood | disappointed ]

God I fucked it all up.

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[04 Apr 2009|04:45am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Please let things be normal tomorrow and the day after and the day after that...

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[01 Apr 2009|02:21am]
[ mood | sad ]

So I'm watching the OC and they're playing interpol. And I just miss him, like a lot.

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unlimited. . . my future is unlimited. . [31 Mar 2009|09:28pm]
[ mood | hungry ]

So yeah. Reading all my old entries made me all nostalgic and shit and I really wish I didn't stop writing. Not just in here but just in general. As embarrassing as some of these were to go back and read, its nice to see where I was and what I was doing and feeling at that moment in time.

I guess ill start writing in here for now seeing as how I've got nothing but time as of late.

So last time I updated I was living in my grandparents house, miserable over the Denise and Alex drama. It took a while but I got over it and realized Denise did me the biggest favor in the world. She and him are finally done as of now. For good I hope because really no one deserves to be treated the way that he played both of us.

I moved back to the bay area a little over a year ago. I couldn't get a job down there and I was sick of fighting with my family all the time. I moved in with my dad. Got a job at wells fargo. Everything was good. It felt like I was finally getting my shit together. I made new friends, I had a job that I loved. But whatever I managed to fuck shit up like always haha.

I got fired from wells fargo a little over my year there. You'd think that I'd learn from past mistakes and try not to let my big mouth get me in trouble. But I guess after being a certain way for so long its hard to change even when you know you should.

So now I'm one of those ghetto ass people waiting impatiently for that employment check. I'm just discouraged cause I've applied and sent my resume to so many places and I've only been on a handful of interviews and I'm not getting anything.

My birthday was a few weeks ago. My drunk ass gets with this friend of mine who had a girlfriend. We forgot to get rid of some evidence which his chick finds. There went a four year relationship and I guess my friendship with him cause I haven't heard from him in over a week. You'd think I'd learn my lesson that being the other girl never ever works out. But yeah. When it rains it fuckin pours. As if I wasn't bummed out over my job I've been bummed over that. Oh well.

Thank god for the no doubt shows this summer. I can't fuckin wait. No doubt AND the sounds. Like alyssa said its like someone asked us who wed like to see play together. We totally lucked out with tickets too:
July 22. U-Amp PIT
July 24. Sacramento PIT
July 25. Shoreline seats in like ninth row cause there's no pit there
July 27. U-Amp PIT
July 28. U-Amp PIT
July 31. Irvine PIT
Aug 1. Irvine. Fuckin nothing, even lawn sold out. Were working on it though.
Aug 2. Irvine seats on toms side behind the pit.
Aug 4. Irvine PIT.

Hopefully that's the last show on the tour cause how rad would it be to be upfront at the last show. I'm telling you we lucked out. And we owe a lot to kelly and alyssas co workers cause they helped us get these bombass tickets.

Aaahh after wanting to see it for two years when it was in el lay and never getting to, my dad got me tickets for mother effing WICKED for my birthday cause its here in sf now. We were center stage in the orchestra in row r which was not far back at all. As soon as the fuckin orchestra started, so did the tears. I pretty much cried out of happiness for the entire show. After listening to the soundtrack and reading the books. Watching clips on youtube. Finally seeing it and especially that fuckin close. It was beyond amazing. And I knew it was going to be. But like I said, seeing it for myself. God. My mom liked it so much that were going in a few weeks. Seeing elphie during defying gravity, rise above the stage. I grabbed onto my moms arm rite before, with tears down my face, saying, 'this is it! Here it comes!!'. Haha I'm such a nerd I'm getting teary just thinking about how special that was to me. I called my dad from the lobby rite after it was over and I was still crying when I was thanking him for the tickets. Sigh. I wanna see it every single day haha. This is gonna sound cheezy or something but the music and lyrics to this show just relate to me on so many levels, especially with what's happened since the beginning of this year. Its almost like I'm glad it happened when it did cause it made me appreciate the whole wicked experience even more.

Anyways. Enough rambling. I've got laundry to do. Me and my dad are seeing bruce sprinsteen tomorrow nite so I gotta wash my born to run shirt haha.

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[21 Mar 2009|02:15am]
Sigh. I just want things to go back to how they were.
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[02 Nov 2006|01:33am]
this is crazy. i havent posted on here in over a year. and the sad part is, nothing has changed with me. i still live with my grandparents, im going nowhere with school. im just stuck in this rut with the desire to get out but i totally lack the motivation. i was fired from target a year ago. ive been working as a nanny for most of this year. the pay is great, unfortunately i have nothing to show for it. and now that i work here all the time i dont have much time to be at home with my niece and nephew. my cousin has two kids now-- natalie is gonna be four and nicolas turned one last month. what else. in may i hit a parked car and hella ran. so now im doing court ordered community service. and my then boyfriend alex was fucking my then best friend denise. needless to say i cut those morons out of my life. and that is the very very short version of the happenings of my sorry life.
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go shorty, its your birfday [01 May 2005|06:41pm]
happy birthday, little sister <3 <3 <3
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this one's for lucy [26 Mar 2005|12:02am]
at work a couple of weeks ago, there was only two cashiers and we were really backed up, and i saw fucking jennie garth and her daughter in my lane. so im russsshing to get to her. why does someone from the floor decide to come for backup and take her away from my lane? i was bummed out.

and happy belated birthday, by the way <3 <3 <3
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[25 Mar 2005|11:50pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

god its been forever since ive updated. this month has had its ups and downs. . . alot of really good ups and one seriously big down. ive been hanging out with jeff alot lately-- the la zoo [[NO PENGUINS!!]], panera, burbank. . . THEN gina and my mother drove down for my birthday, and we had a 'sunday morning' italian dinner. my mom cooked my gma marge's pasta with gravy and meatballs and it was awesome. two bowling trips, one with jeff and the other with big sis alys. she bannnngs!! work, work, work. i'm bummed that ani doesnt have as much time for me as he did at first. im also bummed that im making up excuses for him. stupid cute boy. the tortilla crew at work hate me for burning them out. noaaaaaaaah thinks im cute and thats very very exciting, cause noah is fucking hot. my family comes back from guatemala this sunday. party at the house the nite before. april looks promising-- oslo this monday. sub leg on friday. the killers later this month. oh i got my hair cut and dyed again. yay for pink hair and bangs.

and thats my randumb recap.

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[26 Feb 2005|02:07am]
i cant believe its been a week since the music for relief show. went by hella fast.

come on anaheeeeeim, theres no place like hooooome!! sorry, i watched LITTK today and im a little sad.

haha hella randumb, chad and his girlfriend were in line next to us. after standing all day long, we finally got inside and stood some more. i like how the guys in linkin park seem like theyre the nicest band in the world, yet their fans are fucking jerks. losers, trying to shove girls around. omg jay z came out and it was insaaaaaaaane. i couldnt even move, i was getting shoved from every direction. his WATCH was insane too. haha i couldnt believe he was rite in front of me. 'i came, i saw, i conquered. . . ' haha alyssa. so no doubt finally came on and were awesome like always but the crowd kinda sucked. nothing special about the show, but awesome anyways.

god im tired, just wanted to let you guys know im alive. laaaaater.
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looking back at sunsets on the eastside, we lost track of the time. . . [15 Feb 2005|11:53am]
three more days and i will be at the pond with my sisters seeing our favorite band. aaaaand we got floor tickets. we lucked out man.

free modest mouse show with alyssa last week. not bad at all. cant wait to see the killers. 'hey its like were the kids on the OC. . .'

speaking of the OC, saaaaaaandy what are you doing?!

yesterday was kinda lame. but it was better once i was at home.

shit i thought i had more to say in here but apparently not.

it needs to be friday already <3 <3 <3
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[07 Feb 2005|12:22am]
[ mood | stressed ]

man i cant believe january is over already. and what a fuckin crazy month its been. passed my 90 days at target, woo. i dont think i ever mentioned that i rang up freaking SUMMER from the OC. there's this guy at work, and his name is ani, and ive been 'hanging out' with him for the past month. despite the fact that he's got an almost two year old daughter. what else. my mom came down this month for her birthday, and my gma, tia, tio, and natalie's birthdays. we all went to disneyland as a family and it was very strange. i lost my wallet on the bus today, and that sucks. and my dad is a liar, and that really sucks. BUT, i just found out that NO DOUBT will be playing at the pond this month. for a tsunami benefit concert. thank the lord, cause ive been missing my band <3 <3 <3

and that is my very short and not too detailed update, because i can never write about anything 'real' in here. im just letting you all know that im still alive. fucking work makes me not want to do anything but sleep. im izzzzzout!!

btw-- hey age, he just called. like ten mins after you left. and i HEART you my NITwit <3 <3 <3 <3 and im glad youre my friend and twin and sistaaaaah <3

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[22 Jan 2005|12:01am]
[ mood | confused ]


and not in the joey lawrence way either.

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[27 Dec 2004|11:54pm]
since its tomorrow in delawhere already, happy birthday to my NITwit agie <3 <3 <3
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um diddle diddle diddle um diddle ay [27 Dec 2004|01:19am]
[ mood | cold ]

fucking work. its all i do now. but its all good cause ive got moneeeeey.

alyssa's birthday-- my big sister <3

vandals // nerfherder // audio karate-- warren jumping off the ladder with a noose attached to an inflatabe xmas tree. he ended being dragged into the audience. and dave quackenbush who needs to marry me so i can watch him dance all the time <3. HAHA joe singing here i aaaaaaam loooooooooord, [[aLi i tried calling you but i had like no reception on there]]. but ew my admirer in audio karate had some chick with him, whats up with that?

xmas eve-- aw aLi called cause she knows we do everything on the 24th <3. my mom flew down. we spent xmas at tia's new house. i actually got good stuff this year, like a lamb bag, mary poppins dvd, vans gift certificate. .

now that lisa + nat are gone i should be online more often. but i lie alot so nevermind.

i hope everyone had a good holiday season, and if im not back before, happy new year!!

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[11 Dec 2004|12:34am]
oh man the last day and a half have just been packed with crazyness. after work yesterday jeff picked me up and we chilled. it actually wasnt weird like i thought it would be. went to aahs, and saw chad and dory. i still miss everyone at the store.

jeff dropped me off the the roxy to see the mraz and it was wonderful. joaquin phoenix was there in the vip area. i made friends with these two older girls who musta thought i was older cause they offered to buy me a drink. haha our inner 14 year olds came out as he walked rite past us and we totally asked for his autograph. anyways, he finally came on at 1030 and it was amazing. acoustic set, had me tearing up at some points cause it was so beautiful. im not even exagerating, you all are missing out. it was so cool cause the roxy is so tiny so i was rite up there. yessss and he ended with 'common pleasure' and that made my nite complete. wow though hes totally short though. alyssa's taller than he is.

today was my tio lu's birthday. just got back from west hollywood where we all had dinner. mmmmm thai food. im gonna go puke it all up now so i can fit in my clothes tomorrow.

aquabats tonite with the big AND lil sisters, wooooo.

OH MY GOD did anyone else see that coming on the OC? i could not believe it. and aww they played gwen's song 'cool' during the snOC dance, i almost cried.

i guess im out, but before i go, this is for danielle cause i know she liked it--
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[06 Dec 2004|11:30pm]
it seems all ive been doing for the last three weeks is working and sleeping. i gotta take advantage though cause i dont know if this will be seasonal or not.

turkey day was BOMB, we ended up going to my tio walter's house and he made all the food. im just bummed i didnt remember to bring any leftovers.

went to downtown disney last thursday to see SL. not that great without vincent walker [[he left the damn band for those who dont know]]. so besides the fact that i have no one to stare at now that he's gone, they sounded horrible cause aaron cant play the damn trumpet. theyre playing some more nites this month but now i dont feel the need to go that often. how sad.

stupid gwen cancelling jimmy kimmel, good morning america, letterman, and trl, but she performs at the damn jingle ball. whatever dude, 'iiiiiiiim soooo oooooooover itttt'.

and only laurenjo will recognize that line. which reminds me-- YES, i will be seeing jason mraz this wednesday at the fuckin roxy. and then the aquabats at the el rey on saturday, aaaaaaaaaand the freaking vandals + audio karate at the hob sunset next tuesday for their annual xmas show which are fuckin HILARIOUS. i cant wait.

OHHHHH natalie went to her first day of 'school' today and she was so cute. with her little lunch box. she goes three days a week from nine to noon. aw <3 <3 <3

anyways, im all caught up and im izzzout.
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haha [17 Nov 2004|12:41am]
me: wow i got an email from my cousin jamie
gina: ah jamie. i like her.
me: her mom and dad are keeping my gpas car, and russell got mad and keyed it
gina: WHAT
gina: haha i said that out loud like lil john
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[15 Nov 2004|01:03am]
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